Raising a Healthier Future

 

My father was hurt by his parents' poor parenting and then he turned around and continued the cycle by hurting me. As a new dad, I have the opportunity to either unintentionally continue a family lineage of pain, or to stop the cycle.

Love, Zachary, The Conscious Father

 

My father was hurt by his parents' poor parenting and then he turned around and continued the cycle by hurting me. As a new dad, I have the opportunity to either unintentionally continue a family lineage of pain, or to stop the cycle.

Love,

Zachary, The Conscious Father

Judge Everyone. Forgive Nothing. Forget Who You Are.

The vision statement for my spiritual center is Love Only, Forgive Everything, Remember Who You Are.  To me this implies that if I bring love into all areas of my life and forgive all resentments, I won't lose site of who I am.   

But what happens if you do the exact opposite of Love Only, Forgive Everything, Remember Who You Are?  If you judge everyone and forgive nothing you forget who you are.  I know because I’ve done this. 

Resolutions: resolve within

Most people give up on their resolutions by mid March or early April (research shows this).  But why?  Personally, I think it’s because we aren’t resolving anything within ourselves.  

Take me for example.  For years I’ve made New Year’s resolutions that I’ve given up on.  I start the year excited and ready to go but quickly crash and burn.  Where do I start?  How do I get from point A to point B?  I’m confused!  Help!  

Morning Redo

It’s 7am when my alarm wakes me up.  I roll over and pick up my phone to check Instagram to see how many “likes” my post from yesterday gave me.  Not many.  Bummer.  My internal dialogue goes a little something like this.  Why don’t my posts get as many “likes” as other people?  I continue to scroll through Instagram and notice that a friend of mine “liked” a picture from someone this morning yet they hadn’t “liked” my picture that was posted yesterday.  This brings about more internal dialogue.  How come they “liked” that persons photo but not mine?  Did I do something wrong to this person?  Are they mad at me?

My struggles with perfectionism

My struggles with perfectionism

Perfectionism is a shield that we often use to protect ourselves from getting hurt (or so we think).  I learned at a very young age that if I'm as close to perfect as possible I can avoid or minimize judgement and criticism.  I didn't believe that it was safe to be seen for who I really was...a scared little boy.  This is me putting down my shield and allowing myself to be seen.  Imagine a world filled with people putting down their own personal shields and allowing themselves to be seen.  That's a world I want to live in.  So what's your shield?  

How to Deal with Painful Emotional Triggers in Your Relationships

I’ve been looking for a new job, so I recently decided to update my resume.

“Hun, can you please help me with that?”

“Of course, my love.”

“Thanks, babe.”

Not only did my wife help me revamp my resume, she drafted me a killer cover letter as well.

“You’re the best, babe!”

“Happy to help, sweetie.”

I opened the cover letter the other day and found a discrepancy, something that immediately touched my deepest core wound.

How Complaining Keeps Us Stuck in Destructive Relationships

When I was eight years old my father burst into my room in the middle of the night, high on drugs, and threw my dresser drawers all over the place.

“Stop your crying!” he screamed. “Stop your crying!”

There was a crazy man in my room and I was terrified.

“Now clean up this mess!”

I was shaking. What on earth could I have possibly done to deserve this? With a slam of the door he was gone.

The Path to Freedom: Facing Painful Thoughts and Feelings

My thoughts lately have been so hurtful.

Things like: I’m not a good writer. I’m ugly. I’m stupid.

I’m not funny. I can’t carry a meaningful conversation. I’ll never be special.

The world is out to get me. People take advantage of me. I’m boring and don’t matter.

Like I said, hurtful. Crippling, demoralizing thoughts. One not-so-nice thing after another, and it makes me want to cry.

Laundry Complications

I’m having a really tough time right now. It’s my day off and laundry is on my list of things to do. Yet when i went out to put in a load in the washing machine I found someone else’s clothes sitting in there. Wet having gone through a cycle.

Yeah. I live in a apartment complex. Community washer and dryer. Don’t like it. I used to live in a place that had it’s own right in the apartment. Talk about heaven. Why on earth did I ever give that up. But I did. And now i’m here. Onward.