I’ve done a lot of writing centered around my childhood trauma, specifically around the terrible things that my father did to me when I was a little boy. As I continue to break away from my old story, and really remember who I am, I want to share with you a wonderful gift that my father and I gave each other along the way.Read More
I recently told my therapist that I’m not a huge fan of my job. I said I’m a forty five year old man and I should be making more money.
“How would you do that?” my therapist asked.Read More
I haven’t been making time to write and it’s been weighing heavily on me. Like a lot.
Specifically, it’s been more than three months since my last newsletter. Oh sure I’ve had a lot going on but in my mind three months is too long and with each passing week my thoughts have gotten more convincing… you’re disappointed with me.Read More
I’ve been stressed about money before but its always been a perception not a reality. Reality right now for me and my family is that we’ve been dealing with money issues. Real ones and it’s triggering my scarcity mentality that lurks in the shadows which is a result of my childhood trauma.Read More
The other day I found broken taillight glass next to my wife’s car. At first I thought nothing of it but upon closer inspection I noticed that the person that parks next to my wife sideswiped her car while backing out of their spot. I looked for a note on our windshield admitting fault but there was nothing there. I was pissed.Read More
When I was six years old someone tried to kidnap me. She showed up at my school with a handwritten note saying that my mom’s boyfriend (who was with her prior to her death and is a very well know celebrity) had sent her there to pick me up and she was suppose to take me to him.Read More
When my wife and I first started dating I had a really rough night. She was at a girlfriends house texting me throughout the evening when all of the sudden her text messages stopped. At first I thought it was no big deal but after an hour or so of no contact I had a head full of worries.Read More
When I was 5 years old I went camping. I don’t really remember the actual camping part but I do remember the car ride back to the house and that’s because I had to pee.Read More
My father was hurt by his parents' poor parenting and then he turned around and continued the cycle by hurting me. As a new dad, I have the opportunity to either unintentionally continue a family lineage of pain, or to stop the cycle.
Zachary, The Conscious Father
The other day was my birthday and it was amazing. My wife spoiled me (even though I didn’t need to be spoiled) and I got to spend it with my daughter which made it truly special for me. But it’s the day after my birthday that I want to talk to you about.Read More
What’s a trait that you don’t like about yourself? When we are open and vulnerable about it we can evolve into who we are meant to be.
The vision statement for my spiritual center is Love Only, Forgive Everything, Remember Who You Are. To me this implies that if I bring love into all areas of my life and forgive all resentments, I won't lose site of who I am.
But what happens if you do the exact opposite of Love Only, Forgive Everything, Remember Who You Are? If you judge everyone and forgive nothing you forget who you are. I know because I’ve done this.Read More
How many times have you not tried something because you were afraid of failing? I’ve lost count.
In my mind if it’s not perfect I will fail. So why even try?Read More
You’re ugly. You’re stupid. You’re a loser.
Imagine thinking this way about yourself every day. No exaggeration. That was me.Read More
This past August I took a month off of work to bond with my newborn daughter and it ended up being one of the best decisions I’ve ever made. Here’s why.Read More
I was hooked the first time heard about Instagram. As in checking it compulsively all day every day. That kind of hooked.Read More
A mentor of mine recently asked me where in my life have I been the most frustrated. Oh that’s an easy one I told him. When I’m surrounded by people that I can’t control.Read More
I spent years running from my emotions. I attempted to avoid them with television, video games, and social media (plus many other things) never realizing just how much damage I was actually doing to myself. I was cutting myself off from my feelings to the point where I couldn’t recognize them anymore.Read More
It’s hard to find your inner joy when someone else’s foot is 5 inches from your face. Let me explain.
Yoga has been a part of my life for the past seven years. The more I practice the more I learn about myself. It allows me a glimpse of the joyful and free person I can be in all areas of my life. Last nights class was a perfect example.Read More